Numbers 3:1–13, March 20, 2025 (Thursday)

"All the firstborn are mine. When I struck down all the firstborn in Egypt, I set apart for myself every firstborn in Israel, whether human or animal. They are to be mine. I am the Lord." (Numbers 3:13)

On Wednesdays, I lead the same Bible study session in both the afternoon and evening, yet I notice each session unfolds somewhat differently. Perhaps because it's been some time since I've led an evening Bible study, I find myself more anxious during those hours. This observation has prompted deeper reflection about my unexpectedly sensitive nature.

In retrospect, I recognize my significant sensitivity. I never sleep well on the first night in a new place and invariably feel tense in unfamiliar surroundings. During such times, I especially appreciate those who extend warmth and kindness—their familiarity provides profound comfort.

Sometimes I feel a twinge of regret thinking my children might inherit this trait. While I may not appear sensitive outwardly, I know this aspect of myself exists, and I'm occasionally surprised by my own reactions. If my children experience similar feelings, I imagine it could be equally confusing for them.

For all of us, beginnings and changes rarely come easily or comfortably. I mentioned sensitivity, but this manifests differently in others. Few people readily embrace novelty or genuinely delight in change. Since adapting to new circumstances requires considerable energy, I've come to understand that being "sensitive" simply means someone is paying close attention and investing care in their experiences.

Today's Scripture—"All the firstborn are mine!"—transported me back to seminary days, where most of my classmates were firstborn children. Some shared that their pastor fathers had dedicated them to God as firstborns. Others mentioned their mothers had vowed during prayer to offer their firstborn to God. Hearing these accounts left me feeling somewhat inadequate, as if my calling lacked something because I had chosen this path independently.

As someone with a sensitive disposition, I remember persistently questioning my calling's validity. Some people offer their "first fruits" to the church based on this same Scripture. This practice of gratitude for what comes first—including the firstborn—even inspired the establishment of Thanksgiving as a holiday. After considerable reflection, I found peace in the realization that offering myself to God of my own volition as my family's firstborn was equally meaningful, not because of my parents' wishes but my own decision. This understanding resolved my inner conflict.

In Numbers, God appears to request a response—a form of reciprocity for salvation. Following the Passover miracle and the Exodus, dedicating the firstborn to God could be viewed as an offering in return. The Levites represent all Israel's firstborn, having been set apart for temple service. This reflects responsibility and duty rather than reward. To support the Levites, God established the tithe. As outlined in the law, the tithe provided financial support enabling the Levites to faithfully serve in the temple, with any surplus directed toward helping the poor and marginalized.

The book of Numbers delineates the "order" necessary before embarking on the wilderness journey.

Meditation

Order is fulfilled through responsibility and duty.

Intercessory Prayer

1. Please pray for the youth ministry, for Pastor Choi Seyoung who serves the youth, and for the women's missionary group who faithfully prepare meals each week for the youth worship service.

2. Also, if there are those less visible in our church community, please reach out with a caring call and connect hearts so that no one feels alone.